Another one of those days!

Today I woke up in a a mood... I miss my husband especially today. Not for any particular reason. Just do. I just sat on the couch watching videos and crying. I miss you my dear husband. I know we only have 130 days to go but it seems like a lifetime away!

Micha's 3 days in Memorial Medical Center

Well, about 8pm Last Friday Micha had alot of odd random symptoms. So I took him to the hospital. They did an X-Ray and said he had pneumonia. Then they said he also had a bi-lateral ear infection. They said they were going to just send him home with antibiotics. Okay, I did not agree with that so I called the doctor a moron and made a scene in the middle of the E.R. until they admitted him.

And it was a good thing too, 'cause the next morning when Micha's Doctor came in and checked on him. He had low blood pressure and high blood sugar! So, the doctor kept him another night. He was in there 'till the next morning.And Ill tell you... they did not want to find out what was wrong with them.

Anyway, I just wanted everyone to know that Micha is healing well and is feeling alot better. although, he still has bad days he is feeling much better!

Thank you all for your prayers!

B&B Billiards Savannah GA

Well, last night Amanda and I went to B&B with her step dad Timmy. I drank 3 drinks really fast! So I got drunk... then I ate... well that took my really good buzz away! By the time I got home I was sober... kinda sucked! haha

Timmy on the other hand contributed to the pollution in the Savannah river, with his projectile vomit! lol So stinking funny!

Anyway, B&B is Awesome!! I have yet to find a place better to hang out! Love it!

Been a few days! May not make sense...kind of rambling!

Okay, wow its been a few days since I have posted... I have had so much going on! My roommate moved out, for the most part! She is coming tomorrow to get the rest of all her stuff. So I will have my house to myself.. which to be honest with you is exhilarating but so very scary at the same time. But, I think the craziest thing is that my Friend brought 4 kittens and a mother cat over to my house last Friday. I finally got rid of the last two kittens this morning but, I still have the mother cat so I need a home for her soon. As I hope she finds a home I do not have the heart to take her to animal control. It sucks! anyway, I have been trying to clean organize and deal with my house... well that's not going very well cause I need two rooms to be empty that are not... we will see hopefully she will come and get the last of her stuff and I can organize my room, Michas room, and the rest of the house!! Okay, so I am done rambling! lol I know this probably made no sense! haha o well...

TIRED!!!

WOW! Okay, so this one is not going to be long 'cause I am so freaking tired!!! I have been working my tail off this week on getting everything cleaned and organized. I hope I get done soon cause I sure could use some rest! Anyway, so I am heading to bed! I hope everyone has a great weekend! TGIF!!!!

OH! So there is a light at the end of the tunnel!!

I can see it!!! I can see it!! Whoo Hoo!! So, today I finally got my kitchen exactly how I want it. Now for most of you may seem like no big deal. But, too me it is a extremely big deal!!

Lets put it this way... My husband and I have been married going on three years and have not lived without a roommate at any point in those three years! I know crazy!! But, true! We have lived in five different locations in the last three years and every one we have had at least one roommate if not multiple roommates. So to have my kitchen the way I want it is an AWESOME thing!

Oh, and did I mention it not only is organized but...CLEAN too! My living room, bathroom, bedroom, or anywhere else in the house on the other hand looks like a tornado hit it! haha But, only one room at a time! I will deal with those when I get to them! Hopefully soon!

Wish me luck in my endeavor to take over my own house!!

What a Day!!

Well, today has been a very full and crazy day! First I had to move 6 18 gallon tubs from my storage into the house so that I could go through them. Well, did I mention these tubs are all full of baby stuff, mostly clothes... Have you ever tried to go through baby clothes when you want to have more children. It is one of the most difficult things to do. you always want to keep everything that is cute. Well, my son does not own anything that I did not think was adorable! He wears almost all name brand clothes and well is highly stylish for a 10 month old boy. he he so yeah, not exactly easy.

Then I went through all my kitchen stuff and am trying to get things organized. I am hoping for everything to find a place before my husband gets home. I would like for our house to be organized when we get to our next duty station, and the only way that is going to happen is if this one is.

Then I had to clean... well all you ladies and even some of you men know how that is. Not to mention the time my son consumes.. he is a full time job alone. So yeah, busy day! More to do in the morning as well as Friday morning!

The cleaning never ends!!!

I have been cleaning for 3 days straight and still have more to do tomorrow!! I am so tired! But, I need to get everything in its place. I am hoping I can put away and organize everything and if it does not have a place it is not coming with us on our move in October. I am not, I refuse to take a bunch of randomness we do not need across the country or even next door!! I will NOT!! Anyway, need to go to sleep. Just wanted to make sure I did at least one post today. As always, I am tired!

Day #2 Of my new lifestyle! (not so good)

Well, its day 2 and I did not work out... but, I did clean my house! Does that count? My sister in law came and talked to me for a little while! Christine is one of my best friends and I could not ask for a better sister in law, and Chancey could not do any better than her! I got my living room, dining room, and Kitchen cleaned. Including Dishes!! Which by the way, I HATE!! lol I even scrubbed out the oven! Maybe I can turn this into a good day tho, maybe when Micha wakes up I can take him on a walk around the pond to see the turtles. At least then I it will be a productive exercise day.... Yep, that's what I am going to do... Right after my nap!! AHH MAN!! Micha needs to wake up in ten min... maybe I should start dinner??? Now, to figure out something to cook!! HELP!! lol

A to Z

A. AREA CODE: Currently a 912, but that could change at any moment!

B. BED SIZE: Queen, I love being close to my man, I could actually sleep on a twin with him and be completly comfortable!

C. CHORE YOU HATE: Laundry and Dishes!

D. DOG'S NAME: Do not have a dog, So sad! :(

E. ESSENTIAL "START THE DAY!" ITEM: WATER!!

F. FAVORITE COLOR: Sage Green

G. GOLD OR SILVER: White gold.

H. HEIGHT: 5' 1"

I. INSTRUMENTS YOU PLAY: I am not musicly inclined...AT ALL lol .

J. JOB: MOMMY

K. KIDS: TWO BOYS!

L. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS: Me and My son at the moment! Daddy will be home in October!

N. NICKNAME: LadyBug, Nikki, Momma

M. MOM'S NAME: Teresa


O. OVERNIGHT HOSPITAL STAY: When I had my son!


P. PET PEEVE: 

Q. QUOTE FROM A MOVIE:"Once upon a time, on the north shore of Long Island, not far from New York, there was a very, very large mansion, almost a castle. And on this very large estate lived a small girl. And life was pleasant there and very, very simple. But, then one day, the girl grew up and went beyond the walls of the grounds and found the world."
-Sabrina (1995)

R. RIGHTY OR LEFTY?: Righty

S. SIBLINGS: Too many to count.

T. TIME YOU WAKE UP: Whenever my son wakes me up!

U. UNDERWEAR: All of my undies are from VS.

V. VEGGIE YOU DISLIKE: I havent found any yet. lol

W. WAYS/REASONS YOU ARE LATE: LMAO! I am NEVER late! I have serious time issues. I am usually early to a fault.

X. X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Too many to count but I think my last one was for teeth lol


Y. YUMMY FOOD YOU MAKE: I dont bake unless its pre packaged... Cook I can do... baking not so much! :)
Z. ZOO ANIMALS YOU LIKE: I absolutly love the Lions!!

Mothers Day!

Happy Mothers Day! What is that suppose to mean? Okay, yes I know I have a beautiful son but what about the son that is not here? Mothers day only reminds me that he is not here with me, hugging my neck saying "Happy Mothers Day Mommy." I love Micha, and I know I should just be glad to have him but, honestly I can not seem happy today without him.

I woke up this morning in a horrible mood! My friend wanted to go to the beach today to celebrate Mothers day, I was in tears thinking about stepping onto the beach!! The thought of wearing a bathing Suit or even shorts makes me cringe! But, I sucked it up and went anyway because my son deserved to do something other than sit in our house all day. And I am glad I went because....

Even tho I did not want to go, Micha had a blast!! We were not there long but, while we were he was running all over the beach and was running in the water. Until I realized there were Jelly Fish EVERYWHERE!! But, He loved it! His first trip to the beach! An amazing thing, its awesome!!

SO, anyway after that experience I am even more motivated to lose theese 75lbs. I was litteraly hating myself for being this big this morning!! I CAN DO IT!!!

Overall, A good Mothers Day! (After I made myself get out of my FUNK)

Day #1 of My New Life!

Today was day one of my new healthy lifestyle. You see I don't want to use a diet because I seem to gain the weight back almost immediately after I get off of it, and I do not want to be on a "diet" for the rest of my life.

Anyway, today I worked out for about 45 min. I seem to feel better already! I defiantly have more energy... which for me is an amazing thing in of itself! I seem to drag and feel exhausted ALL DAY! But, NOT TODAY!! I have so much energy I may actually clean my house :P If I can have this much energy everyday lot may, my house will be clean a whole lot more often!

Later when Micha wakes up from his nap I will take him out on a walk around the pond to see the turtles!

Wish me luck!

FAT, FAT, GO AWAY.....

Okay, here goes.... I always said I would not be the "fat girl"! Well, here I am! I am 5'1" and 21 years old. I am almost to the point of Extreme Obesity. My healthy weight is 115lbs. according to my doctor. Well, umm I am 190lbs. So here goes....I have 75lbs. to lose! This is ridiculous!!! Why oh why did I let myself become this person?!?

Tomorrow I am supposed to start a exercise plan with my friend. She is coming over Monday thru Friday for a month and working out with me. Then after a month she will be coming over every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I will be walking for at least 30 min. a day. Hopefully working my tail off everyday will help me to lose the weight.


I am currently a size 16, and am hoping that by my sons birthday in July that I can be down to a size 10! That is my short term goal. Which is approx. 15lbs. Wish me luck!!

My long term goal is 75lbs. by January of 2011!! I'll keep everyone as updated as possible! Keep asking me how I am doing!

To My Husband!

My dearest husband,

As of next month we will have been together for 5 YEARS! In October we will have been married for 3 Years. It truly is amazing all the things we have been through as a young couple. Between the people who said we would never make it to the loss of four children and finally the birth of our beautiful son. But, the most trying thing that has happened in the last 5 years is, your becoming military. January will be 2 years that you have been military, and not one month of that was spent living with your son or I. I am not saying this to make you feel bad by any means. I am saying this because I want you to understand the following.

You could choose to be in the military for the rest of your life and I would stay by your side, even if that meant that our children and I only saw you once a year. I love you and I will be here 'till the day God takes me to heaven. My love I want you to know that that one day a year with you is better than none at all. You and our children are my life! I could not live without you.

I know that people have said many things to try and get us to get a divorce. I want you to know that I have been faithful to you since the first day I ever lay eyes on you 5 years ago. I also want you to know that I honestly do believe that you have been faithful to me as well. I know I can be a little crazy and paranoid sometimes, don't take it the wrong way. I promise it is not because I do not trust you. Its ever other woman out there I don't trust. I love you baby! You are my world and I need you more than ever today!

Happy 5Th anniversary!! Please be with me for many many more! I love you!


Your Adoring Wife,

Nikki "AKA" Your Ladybug!

The New ME!!! :)

Today is the start of a new me! Back when I was a child and a teenager I did not take any crap from anyone. Only I usually reacted badly and ended up looking crazy and scary, rather than respected. Since I got married all my friends say I have gotten "soft". I let people walk on me like I am a doormat! If I care about you or your family you could probably steal from me and I would say nothing. (Which by the way has happened recently!) NO MORE!!! I will not be disrespected and blamed for your F***ing problems any longer!! You are an adult and if you can't take care of yourself and your family without me, well that is just too damn bad!! My family has suffered the last three years because my husband and I want to help everyone who walks into our lives! Well No More!! We will live our own lives, we will be able to live just him and I and our children! We do not need people who claim they care about us hanging onto us and bringing us down! I am back! I am not going to be a doormat, I will not do this in a way to where I just look crazy either. I will be respected! But, if that does not work then The Crazy bitch will be back!! Stop stepping all over me and get a LIFE!!!!

Have you ever wondered who your real freinds are?

I have wondered this allot in the last year or so. You know when things happen in your life and the people you seriously thought would be there are not! When you go over and above what is called of you as a friend... and your treated like your the one who is causing the problems in the first place! Yeah, well that's about where I am at in my life right now. I have a few friends not just one, who I have jumped through hoops for. Who I have given money, support, you name it and it always seems to come back on me. I am the bad person. Apparently without knowing it I control these people!! ARGG!!! I know deep down that its not my fault they are to irresponsible to help themselves and have to take advantage of people who are supposed to be their "friends"! I just cant help but feel bad when he/she is down in the dumps and can not seem to get their self out! What do you think? Should I say "screw it!" and let him/her go, both as a friend and acquaintance? Just let the debt and everything else go and just lose touch? I don't know it just SUCKS!!!

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Oh! Poo on you!! Army Life!!

Well, if you can't tell by my title, today is one of those days. I woke up wishing that "Uncle Sam" would give my husband back.

I usually handle this army wife thing really well. Don't get me wrong, I am very proud of my husband and am very proud of my country.

There are days where I swell up with pride and all I want to do is shout to the rooftops that "I AM A PROUD ARMY WIFE!" Then there are days like today! Days I just wanna rip my hair out because the Army needs to learn how to communicate. They need to give a family adequate time to find somewhere to live, but no! They are going to wait until the very last minute to tell us, so we have to live in a hotel with a 16 month old until we find an apartment or house. ARMY YOU SUCK!!

Okay, I am done ranting and raving for now! he he :)

Folic Acid!! Anencephaly!

Okay, as you know if you have read my previous post. I had a little boy die right before birth and I wanted to tell you a little bit as to why.

If you know anything about what a pregnant woman needs to have a healthy child then you will know half of what I am going to say already. But, if you don't this will be a rude awakening to you.

Folic Acid is a crucial vitamin to take while pregnant and even more crucial to take at least three months before becoming pregnant. Folic acid is the vitamin that keeps your child from having a neural tube defect such as spina bifida and anencephaly.

Anencephaly is the neural tube defect that killed my son. My body does not produce the vitamin that was crucial to his survival. Most women produce at least a little of this vitamin naturally, but still need to take their prenatal vitamins to achieve the amount that the unborn child needs to survive or be born healthy.

Well, I got pregnant before marriage so I was not exactly planning on having a child. Therefor I did not take folic acid before becoming pregnant and I was constantly sick while pregnant and was unable to take my prenatal vitamins. I did not know that my body did not produce this vitamin, nor did I know anything about what you need to do to have a healthy baby.

I was twenty weeks into my pregnancy and was going for my ultrasound to find out what we were having. As I lay on the table looking at the screen I realized that my baby was just too small for his age, he was not moving, and his little heart was not beating. The sonographer would not tell me what was wrong but, I knew. The next day I was induced into labor. After 16 hours of labor and a horrific delivery, I held my motionless child in my arms. He was a perfect little angel and obviously was to good for this planet. After my husband and I spent an hour or so with our son my doctor came in and said he knew what was wrong with Jacey. Anencephaly! I don't ever want to hear of another person going through the horrifying loss of a child that could have been prevented simply by taking a vitamin or eating correctly. Therefor I tell Jacey's story to whoever will listen. If nothing else my angels death will save many others lives.


If you would like more information on Anenecphaly follow the link below:
http://www.ninds.nih.gov/disorders/anencephaly/anencephaly.htm

What has brought me here today!

When I was born my mother and father were very young! My mother, Teresa (16) and my father, Johnny (21) were both raised in controversial families. My mother by a Child sex offender and my father was raised in a family that favored all the other children in the family. When I was born my mother and father were both methamphetamine abusers. A year after I was born my parents had a set of twins. My brother and sister Cody and Casey. My parents split after my brother and sister were born. My mother took my brother and sister to live with her and I went to live with my father. When I was four years old my father met Lynn. Less than nine months later he married her. Less than a year later they started fighting and well, as a five year old watching your father and the woman you call mom fight constantly can cause mental damage. I watched my father beat my mother everyday from 1997 to 1999. In 1999 Lynn went to prison for something that she was forced to do for mine and my fathers safety. In 2001 I and my siblings were taken from my father. We were placed in the custody of California State. After almost three years in foster care I moved to Savannah Georgia to live with my step sister Dawn and her husband in 2003. They adopted me in 2005 and later that year I met my wonderful husband Craig at church camp. Unfortunately a year later I moved back home to California in 2006. Al tho in 2007 a little less than a year later I moved back to Georgia to be with Craig. We got pregnant out of wedlock in July of 2007. Unfortunately, four days before Christmas on December 20th 2007 I gave birth 20 weeks premature to my son, Jacey. Who died before childbirth. Since then We have had two miscarriages and finally succeeded in having our very first healthy little boy, Micha. Then my husband joined the Army and Has not lived with us since January of 2009. He currently is overseas serving our country in Korea. Now begins the story of an Army wife and mother.

About Me!

My name is Nikki. I am the wife of a 94E Army Soldier, named Craig. We are the proud parents of Jacey Allen and Micha James. I am also a Independent Sales Consultant for Signature Homestyles. I hope that through this blog I can get through the rest of this deployment and the many others that I am sure we are to endure in the many coming years.